Brian Smollett writes:
For most converts to
whom I have spoken, and indeed, for myself, there was some type of
experience that let us know that "this was it." We were
Jewish--spiritually, we had come home.
For me, this experience was my first
Shabbat service. I still remember the date, December 14th 1998. I had
never been to a Shabbat service before, and as I watched the sun set
that evening, I remember feeling both a sense of hope and anticipation
for the service I was going to attend that night. Anticipation, because
it was my first time at a synagogue service and hope, because I so much
hoped I would find what I had been searching for.
As I took my seat in the sanctuary and
the service began, everything seemed to fall into place; the glowing
Shabbat candles seemed to make the room a little warmer, even if it was
just my imagination. The informality and joy with which the service was
conducted made me feel like I was a part of Shabbat even though I was
not yet a Jew. Though I did not understand the language in which the
prayers were expressed, I felt that they spoke to me. When the Cantor
began to chant the part of the Amidah about the Avot v'Imahot, I felt
as if in some strange way, I too was connected to Abraham, Isaac and
Jacob, Sarah, Rebecca, Leah and Rachel.
Following the service, the Rabbi, who
would later become my mentor and one of my best friends wished me a
"Shabbat Shalom" and asked me to stay for the Oneg Shabbat. At the
oneg, I realized two things. That Jews love cake, and that Shabbat is
not just about prayer but about people. All of the people around me
were running over to greet friends whom they had not seen all week and,
for a while I felt lost amidst all the strange faces. But before long I
was invited to sit down with a group of people who immediately made me
feel at home. As I left the small Long Island congregation that
December night, I realized that I need not search any longer. I had
found my home in Judaism, and in Shabbat.
Now, two years later, though I may not
always realize it, that Shabbat evening taught me some of life's most
important values. In fact, to me, that is what Shabbat is, a sanctuary
in time that embodies the most important values. By observing Shabbat,
we leave behind the other six days of the week that focus on the
pursuit of time and space, and we turn our focus to what is most
important, our values, our family, our friends, and our God. Shabbat
Shalom.
Thank you Brian for sharing your thoughts and feelings about Shabbat as your inspiration and entrance into Judaism. You have brought up some central ideas about Shabbat: the joy and beauty of the service, the special entrance into a different kind of experience of time, of the specialness of being with people. I have begun my study of Judaism and have learned that Shabbat is an entrance into the eternity of the world to come. Entering into the timelessness of Shabbat involves an entrance into a contemplation of central principles, of the unifying idea, into the meaning of history.
I have been reading Abraham Joshua Heschel's book, The Sabbath and have found it a challenging book in its poetic evocation of what this miracle means. I would be happy to hear more of your ideas on the significance of Shabbat, in fact its profound importance to Judaism. Perhaps you have read The Sabbath. I'd be happy to hear your response to it. I would be delighted in participate in a discussion in this blog on the idea and essence of Shabbat.
Thank you for your post.
Sam Liotta
a searcher for the "axioms of life" (Saul Bellow)